some cool verses

Just read this in Isaiah 58:6-
"Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke? Is it not to share our food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter-when you see the naked, to clothe him, and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood? Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard. Then you will call, and the LORD will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I."

A few comments from me:
We will shine like the dawn when we do those things - essentially when we serve the "Least of these." I get that. But the verse also says that when we do those things "your healing will quickly appear." Hmmm. Back the the healing questions. Was this just for the Israelites? What kind of healing?

Sometimes it feels as though the LORD is silent. Sometimes He is. That is why it is so great when the LORD says to us "Here am I."

a little healing

I haven't updated since November because not a whole lot has changed since then (until about a month ago). Still wrestling on the topic of healing. However, I saw a glimmer of hope. A little boost that I needed in my faith.

In my pregnancies with Elijah and Lydia, I get Thrombocytopenia, which is when your platelets (blood clotters) drop. They need to be at a certain level for an epidural (100,000) and delivery (50,000?). The only way to help slow down their downward progress is to take prednisone, which is a steroid. I took them with both pregnancies and I delivered (a week early by induction) right at 100,000. And as many of you know I have major problemos with breastfeeding and it could be partially caused by the roids (they are like an antibiotic in that they increase the yeast in your body). The thrush - ouch. I cry thinking about it.
This is me pregnant with Lydia - a few weeks before delivery. On the roids. Don't I look buff?


That being said, I started this pregnancy with 210,000 platelets and they started going down. 170,000 to 130,000 to ...
Before my dr. appt at 34 weeks (where previously I had to start on prednisone) I had a chat with God. "God, I need to see something. I need you to help me with my faith cause it is weak. Why don't you RAISE my platelets?" It wasn't like a made a deal, "If you raise my platelets ... I will buy you an ice cream or read my Bible more." Basically told him, I needed it. I needed it for my faith in Him. "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!" (Mark 9:24)

I went to my Dr. appt. and he looks at my chart and says, "I don't know what happened, but your platelets are at 148,000."
"I know what happened! It is from prayer!" And then I told him the background, "I am in this weird place in my faith in regards to healing...."
He listened. And then said, "Well I have another patient and the predinsone is not working. I need to go tell her to pray."

There is no other explanation that God answering my prayer. I had researched it and could find no other means of slowing down the dropping - no vegetables or herbs or exercises, etc.
Even when I was on the prednisone, my platelets never went up. Now now roids for me!!! (That is why I am so flabby). And maybe I won't have the thrush issues with nursing!

So I am not out of my spiritual funk, but this has definitely helped...